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Mar. 13th, 2005 @ 01:00 pm saturday
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: VNV Nation - Further
Work on saturday was quite nice, most customers were really friendly even talked with a guy about how his daughter of 17 is dating a 33 yeard old guy, dont even remember how we came to that subject, i told him i really respected his way of thinking. my dad would never allow me to date someone twice my age. he smiled so that made me happy to. i gave him the stuff he needed and said goodbye :) its nice when people are open like that, i know my father would never tell about what i do in the weekends to others he even told me he doesnt want me to wear a skirt cause if people from the neighbourhood would see me in one, he would need to explain why i wear one, he would be ashamed.... ah well :)

after work i went out with bjorn to some unknown town to see some unknown band so i had no idea what to expect, so after some driving we finnally arrived at the town called "Woerdense Verlaat" perfect name for it :) we walked into some small cafe with all longhaired leather jacket wearing men ^^ luckily it wasnt that big and we saw nienke immediatly (girl who got us to go here), she introduced us to the band members who were gonna perform. they were nice people and the performance was nice to. i must say i been kind of growing out of that music type lately but it was nice to hear it again. i enjoyed it a lot. so i promised them to help them promote them a bit.

go check out www.thename.nl !!!!! or dont !!! :/ but plz do :p

after that we went back to amsterdam to spend the rest of the night in amsterdam(korsakof), nienke and a guy i forgot the name of *feels stupid* but anyways it took a bit longer then expected. normally we use a laptop with some ermm program in it which draws a line where to go etc :) but the battery was dead and we lost to cable to be able to recharge it :< so we had to use old fashioned maps after driving the same route 3 times nienke decided to read the map and we finally arrived there. it can be fun there but i really prefer a good party, its to crowded for me and where people kindly ask you to step aside by touching your shoulder on a party, here you just get pushed away. it is quite small there so i can understand but im fragile ^^ and it was to crowded to dance to :< but it was nice to just stand/watch/talk again to. we stayed till the end and on the way home we bought lots of chocolate :D yay how can you end your night better then with chocolate ^^ it was diffirent then what i normally do but i enjoyed it but still prefer to go to a "goth" party :)
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Mar. 8th, 2005 @ 02:58 pm blabla :)
Current Music: Rotersand - Electronic World Transmission ([SITD] Reconstruc
havent updated in a while again :\ past week been quite fun seen CombiChrist live ! also saw a bit of Amduscia shame i didnt came earlier (really bad weather so we couldnt drive very hard so took longer then expected :< ) since they seemed nicer then CombiChrist. though it was fun there. thx for holding those tickets again Diane :) (and lemme know how stupid i look on the pic cynthia took ^^) took a while to get back home again since it snowed some more when were having fun :)

Saturday we went to Omen luckily a lot closer since weither was still bad, was a lot of fun first time i think i talked more then danced :) but i has tired from yesterday :p and there were some nice people to talk with ^^ and was nice to see you in real Joyce :p we didnt stay till the end but most fun people were gone already so dont think we missed anything.

hrmm yesterday work boring as usual, free day today but means i have to work on saturday so dont think ill be going out on friday :< ah well i could use some rest as my dad would say.
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Feb. 27th, 2005 @ 06:19 pm (no subject)
and here is the link for the pictures made on Bal Du Masque by my friend from now on he will be making pictures for me ^^ he likes to do so but his cam is to big to bring with him so he uses mine im fine with it as long as he carries it around :)

http://www.mijnalbum.nl/Album=6MF7QCU8
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Feb. 27th, 2005 @ 04:36 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: happy
woke up quite early today at around 12, but first about yesterday.

Work was ok only had one weird thing this old woman which i helped asked me if my hair was black by myself or not, i said i colored it, then she asked is it that straight by itself ? so i saiwell i didnt mind no use some kind of gel. then she asked if she could touch it. well i didnt mind so i let her and then she said nice and goodbye and walked... !?!?! weird :)

Wasnt really looking forward to go out cause for some reason i didnt think baldumasque (which my friend insisted to go to) would be my thing, but luckily i was wrong. but after work i said i didnt really felt like going but later i called him again that i did want to go. really liked the location and everyone was dressed beautifull. Even made some piccies !



gonna see if i can get the others on some site will add link later if it worked :) but was really fun :D
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Feb. 27th, 2005 @ 05:40 am (no subject)
yay weekend was fun ! and now its time to sleep goodnight <3 (more tomrrow)

hope everyone enjoyed there weekend :)
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Feb. 22nd, 2005 @ 04:15 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: L'ame Immortelle - ich gab dir alles
I been lazy again so this will be a long boring post again :)

Friday was nice since i could go home early from work (since i worked from 9-9 the day before) so i had enough time to err make myself ready for the concert/after party that night. Went to concert of diary of dreams + some supports. it was nice, first band wasnt really my music, second was ok even though his singing wasnt that good all the time. Diary of Dreams are great live, even though most songs kinda sound alike and them coming back 3 times after they "said goodbye" was a bit to much coming back once ok twice ok but the third time was a bit annoying :) After party was nice even though most people left right after the concert, friend of mine left at around 2 am since he had to work the next day but i stayed till the end. good thing was i only had to walk 5 mins to get back to my bed <3

Saturday was nice to went to Diane and met Donna (even though i apperntly met her before on Cyberia which i couldnt remember). After that me and a friend went to Lelystad to a new party, and omg! he drove there in one try :) we couldnt believe it either. The location was amazing and music was great only bad thing was there werent many people but i met some more people there who i seen on parties a few times already. And my friend had a lot of fun to ^^

Sunday i slept most of the day, but my dad wanted to talk to me which wasnt very ermm nice, he kept asking weird questions about what i wanted and how i looked, well conclusion is i cant do much more then i do right now. No changing my hair, no dress/skirt(dont know the right word :x), not more makeup then eyeliner (even though he is really against that aswell) blabla :\ just saddens me he doesnt want to understand some things, but enough whining :) im still gonna do some things though if he likes it or not :x maybe not at home but ill find some way :)

Guess its also a good time to thank everyone who i met/been around with past few months :) 3 months back i spend my days/weekend in my room doing nothing. so ty cruz/sander for getting me to go to that concert with you :D and thx to bjorn and lisette for bringing me to my first party! even though i didnt feel like going back then :p so thx for forcing me :D ty Diane ! <3 for talking to me :p and introducing me to some of your friends :) i can probaly still learn a lot from you ! :) and ty Fred will see around a lot for sure was nice to talk with you a bit at darkknight. and ty everyone else to love you all! and i use to many smilies in my texts :| so thats it bye.
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Feb. 14th, 2005 @ 12:07 am (no subject)
Current Music: Grendel - End Of Ages
Happy valentines day for those who believe in it :) i just see it as another excuse to sell morepresents/flowers and that kind of stuff.

oh and had to share this song to ^^ love the lyrics, there sad and caring (dunno if i used the right words for that but just read them and you'll understand hopefully) at the same time. and if you'd ever like to hear the song leave a msg and i'll put it somewhere so you can get it from there. also makes me wanna do a shitty attempt of writing poetry myself again.

Time has come for mankind - There is no turning back
From this path of destruction - From this fatal strife
Nuclear waters flowing - Whilst the animals die
Like a poison ivy - It will never retract
See the mountains burning - With luminous fire
See world returning - To what it once was
See the skies are turning black as night
We will never see the light of day again

At the end of ages - I will be here waiting for you
At the end of ages - I will be holding hands with you
At the end of ages - Don't cry for we'll pass on
At the end of ages - For only you I long

Staring lone in the yawnder - Viewing a flaming dawn
Can you see the clouds of fate - Rising high in storms
I greet this saviour - I curse the past
As the rain starts falling - And the winds blow strong
See the mountains burning - With luminous fire
See world returning - To what it once was
See the skies are turning black as night
We will never see the light of day again

At the end of ages - I will be here waiting for you
At the end of ages - I will be holding hands with you
At the end of ages - Don't cry for we'll pass on
At the end of ages - For only you I long
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Feb. 13th, 2005 @ 11:55 am (no subject)
Current Mood: Faint
Current Music: Grendel - Pax Psychosis (Tactical Sekt Remix)
Weekend started early for me even though it wasnt the weekend id be hoping for, woke up really early friday and couldnt do a thing :x really bad headache. found out i had a 40 degree fever so stayed in bed all day couldnt even listen to music longer then 30 minutes or my head would hurt to much lol. poor me ^^

Next day was a lot better already, just bit of a headache left. For some lucky reason i almost never get sick and when i do it never lasts more then 2 days <3 good thing ithere wasnt anything to do this weekend anyways since i wouldnt be able to go out. couldnt have planned it better !

Had a good sleep and nice dream <3 ( till my mom had to wake me and ask if i was feeling better :| ) feeling much better now only that i almost ate nothing in the last 2,5 days all i ate were 2 apples and 3 slices of bread :) so feel err a bit weak. i wanna dance though ! *dances around* also got some new Grendel songs i love them so much, and there name is nice and there logo aswell <3 ill force some dj to play some songs of them next party (i probaly wont cause im to shy but in my dreams i would lol)

Still dont know where to go next friday :\ why does everything has to be on the same day, id like to go the underground frequencies to see whats its like and cause its only 5 minutes walk from my home, and hopefully meet some people from amstelveen cause it sometimes gets boring travelling by ov alone for over an hour. or go to cyberia which is gonna be fun as usual no clue if its gonna be fun in amstelveen dont think the bands who are coming play the music i love, and doubt people will be dancing then lol people tend to stand still at concerts :\ at least thats my experience.... but then again cyberia is in Utrecht ! at least 1 hour by ov and going back is even worse took over 3 hours last time nighttrain>nightbus>30 mins walk home + waiting for them to come... hrmm ah well still got time to decide :)
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Feb. 8th, 2005 @ 08:15 pm i can never think of a good subject
Current Music: Grendel - Crucify
errr didnt do much today, actually i didnt do a thing which was good :D Just browsed some sites to steal some nice clothing ideas from other people :) just need to look around for the right stuff now, next free day is err next saturday so ill have to wait though :\

and ermm rest of the day i kinda spend semi sleeping and listening to music and dreaming <3

http://www.ftuc.net/members/temp/Impy/Grendel-Crucify.mp3 <3 this song

and msn needs to works again ;\
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Feb. 6th, 2005 @ 06:22 pm Pokemon stamp <3
Current Music: some radio
been a while since i wrote something, Im lazy :\ My week was all about working had to work from 9 till 21 for 2 days, but i didnt have much else to do so it was ok.

Weekend was nice decided to go to amsterdam and shop some on saturday (i really need more clothes) also bought some liquid eyeliner which is suppost to be easier to use but it only irritated my eye a lot, but its probaly me who cant use it.

The friend which i said i didnt want to go out with anymore wanted to go out with me again and he said he would drive and not drink this time so printed the route and he said we should easily be there in about 30 mins, but ye it took like 1,5/2 hours lol this time was actually mor fun though got pulled aside by the police twice for alcohol test. ah well after driving on some bus lanes in Utrecht and police trying to tell us where to go we finally arrived. Was really fun at the start but after a while they started playing some other music which i didnt really like, and apperntly more people cause suddenly the dancefloor was empty lol. Only danced for maybe an hour myself and there is nothing next weekend :(. still had a great time though, and i got a pokemon stamp on my hand !!! yay never gonna wash my hand anymore <3

Then the way back just got on the highway and he didnt look if any other traffic was coming so the car behind us had to brake which luckily they did in time though unluckily for my friend it was police, so we got pulled aside for the third time he got all nervous which was quite funny. Only got a warning though.

ermm thats it ;x
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Jan. 31st, 2005 @ 12:02 am My weekend + monday
Was to tired to make an entry yesterday so this will be about yesterday aswell.

Well saturday/yesterday was Gothoord and it was great, wasnt sure yet if i would go or not since none of the people i asked wanted to go but i wanted to dance ! so i went. When the bus arrived i had to walk through some mud first but when i saw the church i was amazed it look so great with the colored glass windows being lighted by the flashing lights from inside and the music playing loudly. at first it was very crowded but after a while it became less and there was more space to dance :D was planning to go home at around 5 am since there was a bus which only drove till 6 am, but Diane and Cynthia offered to drive me to CS. ty again ! love you both <3 so i could dance a bit longer. Also saw the guy i saw at the first party i went to ever and hes still impresses me lol. I think im gonna do my hair like him aswell (shaves the sides, but have to grow my hair a bit longer so i can cover the shaved parts with my hair cause i doubt my work will like it when it shows to much). To bad my legs didnt wanna do what i wanted anymore at around 6 am, danced for about 5/6 hours i believe but wished i would be able to do it longer :D On the way back i found out what girls talk about! you men should really learn to kiss better and behave better !

overall great party, perfect location and had lots of fun

Had to work late today so could sleep a bit longer which i needed aswell, but when i was about to leave i found out i had a flat tire. but i was ok with it, its about a 30 minute walk but i kind of enjoy walking when i have some music on. Gives me time to think of stuff and i guess relax ? dont know exactly but it was nice. Did came late for work though but guess after coming in time for 2,5 years i was allowed to do that once ^^ and walking home was nice to, even though i found my dad a bit annoyed/angry since i didnt ask him to come pick me up. He doesnt understand i like diffirent things then he does :\ ah well guess he ment it good but his choice of words were a bit ermm wrong.

and i really need to buy more clothes, and wanna try something diffirent with make up. Have to look nicely at my sister for that since im still pretty useless with anything else besides eyeliner. ah well time to sleep ! goodnight <3
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Jan. 24th, 2005 @ 07:46 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: lazy
Current Music: some Combichrist songs
i decided to continue writing in english cause i prefer english and it looks less stupid when i make spelling mistakes, this way i can blame it on not being my first language :)

went to sleep at around 2 am last night though i didnt have any trouble waking up and felt pretty good all day on work, maybe cause everyone was giving me attention <3 for some reason they find it special i go out a lot now and ermm find it special i am diffirent then other people, some of them even said they might want to go to a party with me once. Fine with me as long as they have a car so they can drive me there and back home :D even had someone tell me a friend of his liked me cause he showed some pictures of me to her :/ she seems nice but dont think id like her im to picky :/ so now ill have to find some excuse to erm either not meet her or think of something else cause i suck at saying no, but feels nice that someone on this world is still interested in me ^^

guess it finally starting to show i didnt have had much sleep last few days since im getting really tired right now just playing some loud music to not fall asleep, and untill my dad comes in to tell me to turn it down which will probaly be in about 5 minutes :)

free day tomorrow and planning to be sleeping most of that day since i do not have much to do which is good cause i feel like being lazy :D
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Jan. 23rd, 2005 @ 06:55 pm best weekend ever
Current Mood: refreshed
Current Music: downloading music atm <3
had al erg veel zin in het weekend 2 feestjes <3

begon opzich beetje erm klote, zou eerst met de auto naar utrecht gaan maar natuurlijk ging dat weer niet door. ik had even nagevraagd hoe je het beste naar utrecht kon komen en makkelijkste zou zijn met de bus. gewoon bus in en wachten tot die er is en uitstappen, naar nee vriend van me zei dat het veel sneller zou zijn met de tram en dan overstappen op de trein. en ik stom geloofde hem... dus zitten we in de tram (ze zusje ging ook mee terwijl ze de vorige keer al die mensen eng vond en eerder weg wou) en dankzij ghem stoppen we 2 halte te vroeg en moesten we weer 20 minuten op de volgende tram wachten... ok kan gebeuren komen we eindelijk op het station missen we net de trein dachten we en is hij boos op ons omdat we niet harder wouden lopen/rennen dus gaat hij weer van het station af om te kijken wanneer de volgende trein rijd terwijl je het ook vanaf het perron kon zijn... en ja tuurlijk komt er dan de volgende trein aan en hij is er niet komt hij er net aan en dan rijd de trein weg.. en ja hij word weer boos op ons.. na tijdje wachten komen eindelijk op centraal aan en was het nog een klein stukje lopen tot cyberia.

heb het daar echt super leuk gehad lekker gedanst en nieuwe mensen ontmoet ! dan kwart voor vier komt hij weer naar me toe omdat hij weg wou en dan konden we nog de trein van 4:10 halen, had al echt genoeg van hem dus had gezegd dat ik dan wel alleen naar huis zou gaan. uiteindelijk bleef die toch wachten en moest ik de hele tijd het gezeur van hem aanhoren over hoe kut het openbaar vervoer is en hoe hij nooit meer naar utrecht zou gaan, en hoe irritant ze zusje was die die zelf had meegevraagt. maarja heb besloten om maar niet meer met hem uit te gaan :) uiteindelijk was ik om 7:30 thuis ofzo.

iets van 4/5 uurtjes geslapen en toen naar het plein om een broek te kopen die ik samen met men moeder <3 heb verandert in een mooie broek. daarna niet veel gedaan en toen naar epicentre was er best vroeg maar meer tijd om te dansen, begin wat ze draaide was niet echt mijn muziek maar na 12en was het echt geweldig heb hele avond staan dansen en heb nu overal spierpijn :( en blaren op me voet :| maar was het zeker waard :D

morgen weer werken :/ wat is het normale leven toch saai :|
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Jan. 20th, 2005 @ 10:31 pm c'est la vie
heb morgen vrijgekregen ! dus kan naar de kapper om me uitgroei bij te kleuren ;x wil eigenlijk ook iets met me haar doen maar wacht daar denk nog maar even me, me baas loopt nu soms al te zeuren "het is wel leuk enzo dat je je haar verft en lang laat groeien maar het moet niet uit de hand lopen" hij zegt het dan wel op een grappige toon maar volgens mij is die bang dat ik mensen weg ga jagen ofzo. en mijn ouders me moeder vind het allemaal wel best maar heb al zo vaak discussies gehad met me vader, hij is er echt op tegen dat ik eyeliner draag (en nog geeneens zo veel! wil eigenlijk veel meer doen maar kan het nog niet ! :| had me moeder me maar als meisje behandeld vroeger dan wist ik tenminste hoe ik mezelf goed kon makeuppen :D)... maar aan de andere kant waarom zou ik naar hun luisteren... but thats life i guess... choices and choices

maar morgen cyberia en ga misschien ook nog naar epicentre zaterdag.
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Jan. 19th, 2005 @ 12:02 am Work work and work :|
ermm niet echt veel te vertellen, gewerkt en ben twee keer mevrouw genoemd :D is altijd wel grappig om de reactie van de klanten dan te horen als ik begin te praten heb er al zelfs een gehad die zei "waarom doe je je haar dan zo !" beginnen zich altijd meteen te verdedigen en te verontschuldigen maar ik vind het altijd wel grappig en misschien wel een compliment omdat ik vrouwelijkheid ofzoiets altijd wel mooi vind vooral bij mannen ;x maarja, heb ook gehoord dat er wat leuks gaat komen in de p60 ! eindelijk iets waar ik niet 30 minuten voor op de bus moet wachten en hopen dat er nog nachtbussen rijden want is maar 5 minuten lopen vanaf me huis :D

nog paar saaie dagen en dan Cyberia \o/ moet eigenlijk wel weer me haar laten bijkleuren.. maarja zie wel...
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Jan. 17th, 2005 @ 12:45 am mememe
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Suicide Commando - Cry For Mother
hoi lieve livejournal.... :|

ermm verveelde me dus heb maar ook zon ding gemaakt. zal me vaker weleens vervelen dus kan mooi dan hier wat stomme verhaaltjes vertellen. dus als je van stomme verhaaltjes houd en van alles nutteloos wat ik in mijn leven doe erm ja dan moet je maar blijven lezen ofzo.

Ik ben Impy ofwel André of hoe je me ook wil noemen het is maar een naam, werk al bijna drie jaartjes bij een bouwmarkt waar het echt superleuk is... niet dus, was van plan om na een jaar weer terug naar school te gaan maar geld op zak hebben had toch wat meer dan thuis zitten en de hele dag huiswerk maken, dus ben ik maar blijven werken.

Deed vroeger bijna nooit wat in het dagelijks leven maar sinds ik tijdje terug naar london(Camden Town) ben geweest ben ik jaja me haar zwart gaan verven lang laten groeien alleen maar zwarte kleding aan gaan doen en dankzij een aardige collega die me naar me eerste feest bracht ben ik dus wat meer gaan doen. alhoewel de meeste mensen zullen denken dat ik de hele tijd thuis op me kamer zit en allemaal rare gedachtens heb. maarja laats ze maar lekker denken denk ik dan ! ja ik ben dus zoals de meeste mensen het willen noemen gothic ? alhoewel ik dat zelf niet zo vind maarja dat maakt het duidelijker voor de "normale" mensen.

Ben er toen ook achter gekomen dat dansen eigenlijk wel leuk is (snapte vroeger echt nooit wat mensen er zo leuk aan vonden dus heb het toen ook nooit geprobeerd) het geeft echt een vrij gevoel ofzo :D weet niet hoe ik het moet omschrijven maar na een avond gedanst te hebben voel me ik weer stukken beter. dus tegenwoordig ga ik alle leuke feestjes af (Cyberia,Omen,Epicentre,The Grave) en kan je me daar de hele avond op de dansvloer vinden.

Hrmm wordt al weer laat en moet morgen weer vroeg op om te werken dus ga maar naar bedje toe nog even naar wat muziek luisteren in bed en dan slapen. als ik wat leuks beleef tot de volgende keer zo niet erm dan niet
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